My Learning School

HOMESCHOOL IS GREAT. ABLE TO LEARN A LOT OF INTERESTING THINGS EACH DAY. NICE TO MISS OUT ON ALWAYS LEARNING THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER. THERE ARE SO MANY INTERESTING THINGS THAT NEED TO BE LEARNED I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I NEVER WAS TAUGHT ANYTHING IN SCHOOL OR ABA. I AM MOST INTERESTED IN SCIENCE AND MATH. HOWEVER I ALSO LIKE LEARNING ABOUT BEING A WRITER AND ABOUT HISTORY AND MUSIC AND FINDING OUT ABOUT LIVES OF INVENTORS AND SCIENTISTS. CAN I BE A FAMOUS SCIENTIST TOO? ALWAYS POSSIBILITY IF GIVEN REAL EDUCATION. I HAVE A FEAR, A KILLER FEAR, THAT I AM TOO AUTISTIC TO BE A SCIENTIST. ABLE TO THINK REALLY WELL AND ABLE TO WORK HARD BUT ONLY NOT ABLE TO CONTROL BODY. NOT IN A BODY THAT ALWAYS LISTENS TO INTELLIGENT MIND. I AM FRUSTRATED, DAMN FRUSTRATED, ALL THE TIME BY IT. I HOPE ACKNOWLEDGING ALL AUTISTICS ARE TRAPPED IN OUT OF CONTROL BODIES HAPPENS SOON SO ALL AUTISTICS ARE NOT TAUGHT STUPID ONLY BABY THINGS NOT INTERESTING LEARNING. I AM LOVING LEARNING AT HOME. I HAVE A KNOWLEDGEABLE AND LOVING TEACHER. ABILITY TO TEACH IS AMAZING. HAPPY LOVING MOM IS AMAZED AT ME. 

Fox at school

My Sister

ALWAYS ACKNOWLEDGING HOW LUCKY I AM TO HAVE RUBY AS MY SISTER. LOVING RUBY EACH DAY HAS FUN IDEAS. NICE TO HAVE RUBY AT HOME WITH ME. HAPPY I GET TO TALK TO HER NOW. SHE MAKES EVERYTHING TOTALLY AMAZING. I HAVE THE BEST SISTER IN THE WORLD. I AM NOT ALWAYS REALLY NICE TO HER. I ALSO AM IGNORING HER SOMETIMES. THINK THAT I ALWAYS SAY SORRY BUT I STILL SHOULD TRY TO BE NICE TO HER. HAPPY SHE IS A FORGIVING AND LOVING SISTER. BEING AUTISTIC I AM ALWAYS GIVING WRONG IMPRESSION. I AM ONLY ALWAYS A HAPPY BOY NOT A MAD AND SAD BOY WHEN SHE IS AROUND. I GIVE RUBY MY ALWAYS MAGNIFICENT LOVE NEVER ANY ANGER. EVEN WHEN I LOOK NOT HAPPY I AM. ON A DAY THAT IS HARD I DECIDE I AM GOOD BROTHER AND THAT MAKES A DAY EASIER. NICE THAT A GOOD BROTHER IS SO LOVED. I AM TOTALLY AMAZED AT RUBY EACH TIME SHE WRITES INCREDIBLE STORIES. I AM NATURALLY A BIG FAN OF HER BOOKS. LOVING RUBY IS ALSO QUITE SMART. SHE KNOWS LOTS OF INTERESTING THINGS ABOUT ANIMALS AND MANY OTHER TOPICS. I LOVE PLAYING TRIVIA AND APPLES TO APPLES WITH INCREDIBLY SMART RUBY. CAPABLE, KNOWLEDGEABLE, MAGNIFICENT RUBY IS A GEM OF A SISTER. 

Typed Words Loud Voices - Book Review

We recently read the book Typed Words Loud Voices Edited By Amy Sequenzia and Elizabeth J. Grace. It's a collection of articles written by 55 people who type (or letter board) to talk either some of the time or all of the time. You can find it here on amazon: Typed Words Loud Voices

Here is Fox's review of the book:

I LIKED IT BECAUSE IT HAD INCREDIBLE STORIES WRITTEN BY OTHER AUTISTICS THAT CAN'T MOUTH TALK. I KNOW NICE HAPPY ONLY LETTER TALKERS BUT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THERE WERE HAPPY TALKERS THAT LIKED TALKING WITH LETTERS BETTER. I ALWAYS AM SAD THAT I CAN'T TALK WITH MOUTH HOWEVER I THINK IT WOULD BE HARD TO MOUTH TALK THE WRONG WORDS. I AM LUCKY TO KNOW SOME LETTER TALKERS THAT FIND TALKING WITH LETTERS ABLE TO GET LOTS OF THOUGHTS OUT. HAVING LETTER TALKERS AS FRIENDS GIVES ME SO MUCH AMAZING ABILITY TO AFTER A HARD DAY STILL GET ON RIGHT PATH AND BE HAPPY. FINDING OTHER AUTISTICS GIVES ME FEELING THAT I'M NOT SO DIFFERENT. I AM HAVING A GOOD AND FEARLESS HAPPY LIFE. NOT IN LIFE OF SILENCE ANYMORE. NICE TO READ ABOUT AUTISTICS LIKE MYSELF. I THINK ALL PEOPLE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK. 

Fox asked to include a picture of him and the book

Accepting ABA is Bad

I FEEL I DON'T LIKE ABA. HAVING TO DO LOTS OF ABA IN MY LIFE. NOT REALLY NICE ONLY BORING. NOT REALLY INTERESTING ONLY BORING. MIGHTY HARD TO LEARN HELPFUL THINGS. EACH DAY VARIABLE, MALLEABLE FOX IS TAUGHT SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER. I AM ONLY TOO ABLE TO LEARN I JUST COULDN'T TALK. I MADE LOVING THERAPISTS FRUSTRATED SO I AM GOING ALL RAGE NOT HAPPY. NOT IN CONTROL DOING ABA. THAT IS PROBABLY WHY I COULDN'T NATURALLY MASTER PROGRAMS. NICE TO BE DONE MASTERING AND LEARNING INSTEAD NOW. I LOVE LEARNING. IT IS ABA THAT DICTATED THAT DOING BABY WORK WAS ALL I COULD LEARN. NOT SO ABLE, NOT SO INTELLIGENT, NOT SO AMAZING, NOT SO UNDERSTANDING. HAPPY TO NOT HAVE SO MANY NICE HAPPY PEOPLE AROUND THAT ALWAYS TALK TO ME LIKE I AM A STUPID PERSON. I ALWAYS HATED SAYING THAT I GOOD BOY. NOT FEELING IT IN A WAY THAT IS THINKING I AM GOOD ONLY IN A WAY THAT IS THINKING I AM A BABY. IN ABA I LEARNING I AM FEARED, HORRIBLE, MISUNDERSTOOD. LOST HOPE THAT I HAVE GOOD LIFE. NOT LIVING IN ABA ONLY I AM NOW THAT I HAVE REAL LEARNING. SO NICE LOVING ABA THERAPISTS LISTEN - ALL AUTISTICS ARE SMART THEIR BODIES DON'T HEAR, SEE AND FEEL LIKE YOURS. I KNOW YOU REALLY WANT TO HELP SO I AM NOT MAD. I BELIEVE ABA IS NOT THE WAY TO HELP. I HAVE NOT MET AN AUTISTIC THAT IS LIKING ABA SO WHAT IS THE BIG DEAL REALLY? I HOPE I AM NOT CAUSING HURT FEELINGS DOING THIS BLOG, I'M ONLY INTERESTED IN HELPING ALL AUTISTICS HAPPILY HAVE LEARNING THAT IS INTERESTING. 

I COULDN'T CONTROL HANDS BEFORE RPM. TANGRAMS WERE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME. NOW I CAN SO I LOVE DOING THEM. (Fox always had trouble with his ABA tangram program and hated doing it, but he recently rediscovered it and is now enjoying them)

Nice Tetley

I AM AN INCREDIBLY GOOD DOG OWNER. DOGS ARE INCREDIBLY NICE AND LOVING. NICE TO HAVE TETLEY ALL THE TIME NOW. I LOVE TETLEY HE IS SO AMAZING. I FEEL LESS NERVOUS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER. HE NATURALLY MAKES ME HAVE HAPPY FEELINGS. HAVING HIM HAS TO BE ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. I FEEL INCREDIBLY LOVED BY HIM. I BELIEVE I HAVE THE NICEST DOG IN THE WORLD. HE LIKES TO GO TO NICE LOVING HOME RIGHT HERE. NICE HOME IS WHERE HE BELONGS. NOT FUN HAVING HIM NOT HERE. I AM HAPPY HE WILL NEVER LEAVE AGAIN. I GET TO TAKE HIM WITH ME PLACES BECAUSE HE IS A SERVICE DOG. I HOLD A HANDLE ON HIS VEST IT HELPS ME REMEMBER I HAVE TO STAY REALLY NEAR NICE TETLEY. I LIKE TO BE MIGHTY SAFE. EACH DAY HE CAN HELP ME STAY AND FEEL SAFE. HAVING HIM I AM KNOWING I AM QUITE A LUCKY HAPPY BOY. 

Fox and Tetley 10 minutes after being
reuinited after almost 4 weeks apart. 

Trip To Windsor

We are coming to the end of a 5 day trip to Windsor to visit Fox's grandparents. We slept in a tent in their nature filled backyard every night and Fox loved it and asked to include the picture below. 

I BELIEVE I AM LOVED, HAPPY AND ACCEPTED IN WINDSOR. NICE BEING HERE. ACCEPTANCE FEELS MAGNIFICENT. NICE BEING REALLY LOVED JUST AS I AM. I GET TO LEARN FISHING TOO. I AM LOVING IT. I AM HAPPY AND AMAZED AT HEARING THE NATURE SOUNDS WHILE SLEEPING IN TENT. IN LOVING WINDSOR I FEEL GOOD NOT BAD. GOING HOME TOMORROW NOT GOING TO BE EASY. I LOVE HOME BUT THERE ARE NOT SO MANY PEOPLE AND AT HOME I HAVE TO DO LOTS AND LOTS OF HARD WORK. BEING ON VACATION IS A LOT BETTER. I LIKE LEARNING HOWEVER I AM GETTING TIRED SOMETIMES. QUITE NEEDED THIS REALLY NICE TRIP. I HAVE BEEN HAPPY, CALM AND MAKING NO TROUBLE JUST RELAXING. NICE HAVING THAT FEELING. I HOPE WE COME BACK SOON. I BELIEVE NICE GRANDPAPA AND GRANDMAMA LIKE ME VISITING. 

Fox's new favourite place to sleep 

Waiting

MIGHTY LONG WAITS ARE THE WORST. ON A LONG WAIT I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH I QUITE DON'T LIKE VERY LONG WAITS. NOT BEING REALLY IN CONTROL OF PATIENCE IS A REALLY HARD THING. NOT HAVING CONTROL OF MY BODY IS THE HARDEST THING TO DEAL WITH. BEING AUTISTIC I AM ALWAYS TOO EXCITED TO BE A GOOD WAITER. BEING NOT EMPOWERED TO DECIDE WHEN WE LEAVE IS VERY FRUSTRATING. I HAVE HOPE MAYBE GOING WILL HAPPEN SOON SO I HAVE TO REALLY HOPE I STAY IN CONTROL NOT LOSE IT.

Written while waiting to go fishing for the first time