Stuck No Longer

THIS POEM IS FOR NICE MOM AND DAD WHO TOOK ME TO MAGICAL PLACE TO LEARN TO TALK. I AM HAPPY TO BE A TALKER NOW. 

STUCK NO LONGER

AFTER A PLEASING WALK

CAME TO A MAGICAL PLACE

FOUND OUT I COULD TALK

LIKE REST OF HUMAN RACE

BEING SO KNOWING

YOU EVERYDAY ARE STUCK

NO FEELING OF SHOWING

ARE TERRIBLY OUT OF LUCK

AMAZING TO LEARN THINGS

ALWAYS FEELING SMART

GIVES ME LOTS OF FEELINGS

I HAVE INSIDE A HAPPY HEART

BEING SO ABLE TO SAY

NICE LOVING AMAZING WORDS

ALWAYS MAKES INCREDIBLE DAY

AND MAKES ME SING LIKE BIRDS

Fox travelling to a magical place called Texas

Planetary Feelings

I AM HAPPY TO HAVE A BLOG TO SHARE MY POEMS ON. I HOPE EVERYONE LIKES IT. 

BEING A POET IS A REALLY AMAZING AND HAPPY THING. APPRECIATE ABILITY TO WRITE POEMS SO MUCH. GOING TO WRITE MANY AND BILLIONS MORE. 

NICE FEELING ACCEPTED BEING MY AUTISTIC SELF AND ALL PLANETS ARE METAPHORS FOR INCREDIBLE FEELINGS I AM HAVING ALL THE TIME. 

PLANETARY FEELINGS

MARS ALWAYS FEELS ANGRY
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN MAD

VENUS ALWAYS FEELS HAPPY
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN LOVED

MERCURY ALWAYS FEELS GOOD
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN FUN

SATURN ALWAYS FEELS AMAZING
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN FEARED

EARTH ALWAYS FEELS NICE
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN KNOWING

NEPTUNE ALWAYS FEELS ABLE
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN LOST

JUPITER ALWAYS FEELS GIANT
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN AWED

URANUS ALWAYS FEELS ACCEPTED
ONLY FEELS ALRIGHT WHEN DIFFERENT

My Poem

EACH DAY I HAVING A LOT OF FEELINGS. HARD TO CONTROL THEM. YOU WILL FIND A LOT OF FEELINGS ARE MEANING DIFFERENT THINGS IN MY POEM HOWEVER THEY ALL UNABLE TO LOSE LOVE. 

LAUGHTER IN MY HEAD

HAPPINESS IS A FEELING OF BANGING
HAPPINESS IS A FEELING OF NOISE
HAPPINESS IS A FEELING OF MAGIC
HAPPINESS IS A FEELING OF LOVE

NICENESS IS A FEELING OF MIGHT
NICENESS IS A FEELING OF ADMITTING
NICENESS IS A FEELING OF QUIET
NICENESS IS A FEELING OF LOVE

SADNESS IS A FEELING OF WISHING
SADNESS IS A FEELING OF NASTY
SADNESS IS A FEELING OF WASTE
SADNESS IS A FEELING OF LOVE

MADNESS IS A FEELING OF RAGE
MADNESS IS A FEELING OF LOUD
MADNESS IS A FEELING OF SORRY
MADNESS IS A FEELING OF LOVE

ACCEPTINGNESS IS A FEELING OF RIGHT
ACCEPTINGNESS IS A FEELING OF ALLURE
ACCEPTINGNESS IS A FEELING OF HOPE
ACCEPTINGNESS IS A FEELING OF LOVE

HAPPILY LOVED BY NICE MOM

Sleep

I AM ALWAYS TIRED. I FEEL SO OUT OF CONTROL WHEN I AM TIRED. SAME FEELING I GET WHEN I TOO STRESSED AND WORRIED. I AM SO NOT ABLE TO SLEEP ENOUGH. NOT ABLE TO FIND NICE RELAXING SLEEP. I AM FEELING SO TIRED OF BEING SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. MAKES IT HARD TO SPELL. BUT I AM STILL ABLE TO WHICH MAKES ME ALWAYS GRATEFUL. HAPPY I FIND POSSIBLE SPELLING WHILE TIRED SO I CAN STILL TALK AND NOT BE TRAPPED IN SILENCE JUST BECAUSE I HAVE BAD SLEEP. HAPPY NOT SAD I MISS SCHOOL. I WAS ALWAYS EXHAUSTED AND IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO ALWAYS BE IN CONTROL. NATURALLY ON A GOOD DAY AND A SLEEP HAD HAPPENED I STILL NOT WANTING TO GO TO SCHOOL BUT I AM ONLY SAYING IT IS HARD TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY WHEN I AM TIRED. I AM KNOWING A LOT OF SCIENCE BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO GET MORE SLEEP. I GUESS ALWAYS I AM A LEARNER SO I KNOW I AM GOING TO FIGURE IT OUT EVENTUALLY. NATURALLY SCIENCE WILL KNOW AGAIN WHAT TO DO. DAD AND I ARE DOING SLEEP EXPERIMENT TO SEE IF ROCK CLIMBING BEFORE MY GOING TO BED WILL HELP ME SLEEP BETTER. NICE TO GET TO DESIGN EXPERIMENT LIKE REAL SCIENTIST. BAD FEELING ALWAYS TIRED, I HOPE MY EXPERIMENT WORKS. 

Fox asked me to include this snippet of conversation where he and his dad designed the great sleep experiment:


Dad: any ideas?
Fox: NICE DAD TAKES ME ROCK CLIMBING EVERY NIGHT TO TIRE MY BODY OUT
D: Ok, an interesting idea.  Now how do we test it with the scientific method?
F: HYPOTHESIS IS ROCK CLIMBING EVERY NIGHT IS NEEDED FOR GOOD SLEEP
D: How do we test the hypothesis?
F: I AM THINKING WE TEST IT BY DOING TEN TRIALS
D: What does a trial entail?
F: A TRIAL IS I AM CLIMBING FOR ONE HOUR AT NIGHT
F: DATA COLLECTION OF HOW MANY MINUTES I SLEEP EACH NIGHT AFTER CLIMBING
D: Okay.  But how will we determine how many minutes you sleep each night?
F: DAD HAS A TIMER
D: Ok, so now we have collected some data.  What do we do with it?
F: AVERAGE OUT THE TIMES AND COMPARE TO CONTROL TIME
D: And what is the control time?
F: AVERAGE NOT CLIMBING SLEEP TIME 
D: How many days should we not climb
F: TEN SO IT IS SAME
D: Ok, that sounds good to me.  Is there anything else that we're missing?
F: NO I AM THINKING IT IS GOOD EXPERIMENT 
D: Ok, then we will give it a try sometime
F: I AM NOT ABLE TO CLIMB AT ALL FOR TEN DAYS?
D: How can we get that data?
F: I BE SAD TO NOT CLIMB FOR SO LONG
D: Well, you could change the number of days that you don't climb.  But then you should also change the number of days that you climb as well
F: OK I AM THINKING TEN IS GOOD I AM OK SLEEP EXPERIMENT IS IMPORTANT
D: Alright then, sounds like a pln
F: OK LEARNING IS A FUN THING

Autistics are Smart

HELPING AUTISTICS IS SOMETHING I REALLY WANT TO DO. HAPPIEST WHEN ACKNOWLEDGING I AM APPRECIATED FOR HAVING SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO SAY. HAPPY TO APPLY MY KNOWLEDGE ABOUT AUTISM INTO A NICE ROAD TO HELPING AUTISTICS BE TREATED NICE AND EDUCATED. IT IS INCREDIBLY CHALLENGING TO LIVE IN TOTAL SILENCE. HAVING NO WAY TO BE HEARD, HAVING NO WAY TO BE EDUCATED, HAVING NO WAY TO HAVE FRIENDS. I AM BEYOND RELIEVED AND HAPPY I HAVE A WAY TO TALK. HAPPY I CAN INTERESTINGLY HAVE DISCUSSIONS ABOUT NOT ONLY NICE ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS BUT ALSO MY OWN IDEAS. EACH DAY I LEARN BUT I ALSO TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT NICE THINGS I'M THINKING ABOUT. I ALWAYS AM THINKING ABOUT HOW I CAN HELP OTHER AUTISTICS LEARN TO TALK WITH LETTERS TOO. I BELIEVE SOME PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT AUTISTICS HAVE SMART MINDS. I THINK THAT IT IS HARD FOR THEM TO SEE AN OUT OF CONTROL BODY AND BELIEVE MIND COULD BE SMART. I BELIEVE HAPPY ONLY LETTER TALKERS ARE GROWING IN NUMBER AND REALLY WILL BE ABLE TO SHOW HOW NOT STUPID AND LEARNING DISABLED WE ARE. GIVING US A CHANCE TO LEARN IS NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK. I HOPE THINGS REALLY WILL CHANGE AND A BETTER NOT QUIET LIFE CAN BE HAD BY ALL AUTISTICS. HAPPINESS IS ALSO ACKNOWLEDGING REALLY SMART MINDS CAN EXIST IN BODIES THAT LOOK DUMB. 

Fox asked to include a picture of him giving
his first speech at a local support group last winter.

Click here to see blogs and writings by other letter talkers.  

Happiness

I FEEL I AM LAUGHING IN MY HEAD ALL THE TIME. NATURALLY I AM WONDERING WHY NICE LAUGHS ARE STUCK INSIDE. FEEL A LOT HAPPIER THEN I LOOK. I AM NEVER NOT HAPPY IN HOME SCHOOL. DAMN CALM AND AMAZINGLY HAPPY ON INSIDE. I HAVE A GOOD, HAPPY AND LOVING LIFE. I AM A HAPPY, CARING AND AMAZING BOY BUT I DON'T LOOK THAT WAY. HAPPINESS IS ALWAYS HIDDEN LIKE INTELLIGENCE. I AM NOT ABLE TO GIVE HUGS WHEN I WANT TO. NICE TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL BETTER AND FEELING A HUG ALWAYS HELPS. I KNOW A BODY AFTER HUG ALWAYS FEELS LESS SAD AND MORE LOVED. I LOVE THAT FEELING AND WANT TO GIVE IT TO MY FAMILY. HAVE TO FIND MANY AMAZING AND ALWAYS FUN PEOPLE TO BE AROUND. I AM LOVING HAVING FRIENDS. RIGHT NOW I'M PATIENTLY WAITING TO GO TO PARK TO SEE A GOOD FRIEND. I AM A GOOD FRIEND TOO. HE'S ALSO NOT A MOUTH TALKER SO HE UNDERSTANDS I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF HOW HAPPY I LOOK. I THINK HE IS NICE BECAUSE HE IS ALWAYS A GOOD LISTENER AND GIVES GOOD ADVICE. I LOVE TALKING TO HIM. I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO PLAYING WITH HIM. 

Fox and Brayden at the park
(Brayden has his own blog called Life With a Boy Named Brayden)

Giving Worries a Rest

I AM ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT SOMETHING. I HAVE SO MANY FEARS NEAR BECAUSE AFTER I WORRY I LOSE CONTROL. TO LOSE CONTROL IS A HORRIBLE THING. AFTER DOING SOMETHING OUT OF CONTROL I FEEL SO BAD. I AM HURTING OR BREAKING AND IT IS THE WORST FEELING I HAVE EVER FELT. EACH DAY ALL I FEEL IS REALLY WORRIED. THINK I AM OK BUT I FEEL ANXIOUS ANYWAYS. NOT TOO ABLE TO NOT BE STUCK IN MY AMYGDALA. HAS TO BE THE MOST ACTIVE AMYGDALA IN THE SOLAR SYSTEM. I WISH A PREFRONTAL CORTEX WAS AS ACTIVE. I MIGHT INSIDE A BRAIN FIND THAT LEARNING GAVE ME PEACE INSTEAD OF WORRIES ALWAYS BEING THOUGHT. HAPPY TO WRITE ABOUT THIS. IT IS A  HIGHWAY INTO MY MAGNIFICENT, LEARNING PREFRONTAL CORTEX. 

I CAN'T WORRY NEAR AS MUCH AT THE PARK WITH RUBY