Tuesday, May 17, 2016

My Body

FEELING EXTRA OUT OF CONTROL. BODY EXTRA BAD AT LISTENING. FIND IT SO FRUSTRATING. HAPPENING A LOT LATELY. HAPPENING REALLY TOO MUCH. I FEEL SO HELPLESS AND ANGRY AND PERSONALLY SAD WISHING BODY WOULD CALM DOWN AND BEHAVE. SAPPY I KNOW, I LOVE FAMILY AND TOTALLY EACH DAY AM BREAKING THEIR STUFF AND KEEP PINCHING AND FEEL SO BAD ABOUT IT. NATURALLY LOVING FAMILY FORGIVES AND STILL KEEP LOVING ME. HAPPY AM LOVED ALWAYS HOWEVER WISH I FELT MORE IN CONTROL OF BODY. FEEL BETTER AT FOREST AM NOT SURE WHY. A WALK IN WOODS IS UNDERSTANDING I AM PART OF NATURE AND GIVES BODY PEACE. 

I AM ALSO HAVING HARD TIME FEELING HANDS. I FEEL THEM IF I HIT LETTERS HARD AND FEEL THEM APPLYING PRESSURE WHEN I HOLD SOMETHING BUT OTHERWISE THEY ARE SADLY NOT A PART OF ME. AMAZINGLY AM STILL ABLE TO SPELL. PERHAPS THE GENIUS SOMA UNDERSTOOD THIS AND AMAZINGLY TAUGHT RPM IN A WAY THAT ALLOWED ME TO CONTROL MY INVISIBLE AND POORLY FELT HANDS. 


1 comment:

  1. Fox, That does sound frustrating. Holding something in your hands seems like a great idea. Do any of your other autistic friends experience this? Do they have suggestions that might help?

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