My Body

FEELING EXTRA OUT OF CONTROL. BODY EXTRA BAD AT LISTENING. FIND IT SO FRUSTRATING. HAPPENING A LOT LATELY. HAPPENING REALLY TOO MUCH. I FEEL SO HELPLESS AND ANGRY AND PERSONALLY SAD WISHING BODY WOULD CALM DOWN AND BEHAVE. SAPPY I KNOW, I LOVE FAMILY AND TOTALLY EACH DAY AM BREAKING THEIR STUFF AND KEEP PINCHING AND FEEL SO BAD ABOUT IT. NATURALLY LOVING FAMILY FORGIVES AND STILL KEEP LOVING ME. HAPPY AM LOVED ALWAYS HOWEVER WISH I FELT MORE IN CONTROL OF BODY. FEEL BETTER AT FOREST AM NOT SURE WHY. A WALK IN WOODS IS UNDERSTANDING I AM PART OF NATURE AND GIVES BODY PEACE. 

I AM ALSO HAVING HARD TIME FEELING HANDS. I FEEL THEM IF I HIT LETTERS HARD AND FEEL THEM APPLYING PRESSURE WHEN I HOLD SOMETHING BUT OTHERWISE THEY ARE SADLY NOT A PART OF ME. AMAZINGLY AM STILL ABLE TO SPELL. PERHAPS THE GENIUS SOMA UNDERSTOOD THIS AND AMAZINGLY TAUGHT RPM IN A WAY THAT ALLOWED ME TO CONTROL MY INVISIBLE AND POORLY FELT HANDS. 

New Speech

I FEEL SO GOOD. I HAPPILY GAVE A SPEECH TODAY AND I WAS ABLE TO STAY CALM WHOLE TIME. GIVING SPEECHES IS THE LAST THING I EVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE DOING. HAPPY AND AMAZED AT MY LIFE NOW. SAPPY I KNOW, DAMN HARD TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE NICE DR DOHERTY FOR INVITING ME AND FOR TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT RPM. HAS TO BE GOOD FEELING TO BE ABLE TO HELP PEOPLE EVERYDAY. MY SPEECH WAS INSPIRED BY MALALA AND IT IS ABOUT EDUCATION FOR EVERYONE. 

A Need For Education

Magic and sorcery don’t exist, are amazing works of fiction. Being real means that a lot of Autistics get stuck and can’t be understood because their bodies don’t listen to their brains. I am thinking that having ability to read minds or telepathy would make life easier but in reality where Autistics are not able to talk a new way of teaching is needed.

I am going to tell you about my life in school before I learned how to talk with letters. It is very difficult to talk about. It is not a happy time in my life. Acknowledging that all Autistics are able to understand everything even though it doesn’t look like they do is hard for adults to do. Sometimes there are nice teachers that feel Autistics are worth teaching but they are not the norm. Help is needed to make schools better for all Autistics not just Autistics that can mouth talk.

Speaking is ability to move mouth in complicated ways, it is not the ability to think. A thinking brain requires no moving body parts. I hope that helps make it easier to believe how totally smart Autistics are on inside. Teaching Autistics same as teaching anybody however Autistics have trouble answering questions. Answering questions is not needed to learn. Hearing or seeing or touching is all that is needed to learn. After Autistics learn to letter talk they can intelligently answer all the questions in the world. Can’t stress enough that talking is not a requirement of learning. Everyone here just learned that Autistics are smart and did it without answering any questions. Autistics are stuck in a cycle of never learning new things. I found school so boring and ABA even more boring. Imagine learning colors, ABCs, and shapes over and over again year after year. Anybody interested in learning that way? Anybody think they would be happy and calm learning there? I find so much difference between how letter talkers and mouth talkers are treated. A mouth talker is always given an education at school, a non-speaker is not. Assumption that speaking is 99% of learning is incorrect assumption.

I find I learn well when I’m taught age appropriate interesting things. Accepting someone talking to me like I’m a baby is impossible for me to do. Feel like talking to Autistics is not any different than anyone else, however think nobody knows that. Learn to please be respecting of personhood of all Autistics. I am finding some people are so surprised how amazing I am as a person. Appreciate kind words however I always this way on inside I just didn’t have a way to show it. I am not a changed person, I am same Autistic boy I always was. Need to really understand that, it is important. Talk is amazing, thinking is just as amazing. Being non-speaking is a really scary thing sometimes. Thinking and feeling is how Autistics get through a day. Talking with letters I’m able to really finally have control over my life. I am talking everyday, thinking same as always.

Acknowledging I didn’t always behave at school. That is main reason I think it seemed like I didn’t understand. I of course understood everything that was said to me but it is hard for me to control what my body does. I feel my body makes bad choices and I am always suffering the consequences. I feel that is hard for non-autistics to really understand. Naturally I am the opposite, I find it hard to imagine having total control of my body 100% of the time. Still I believe it is true for you. Autistics should be believed too. Autistics should be seen as the intelligent people they are. Autism is treated like it is a learning disorder however it is a motor and body control disorder. That is again very important to understand.

In conclusion I hope I have taught you what non-speaking autism actually is.

Brayden's speech

NICE DR DOHERTY

BRAYDEN AND I AFTER SPEECH